Today has not been good. That's why i'm back early to prevent my day from getting worse.
I had physics tutorial today which i din do and i just listen deafly and talked throughout the lesson. Mr wong need to learn how to speak louder. His voice is really making me drowsy and if i dont talk i will really sleep. Then i had PE. We played touch rugby today. It was fun cause my team which comprises of only 4 people won! Each of us scored 1 goal each, which is a major achievement. But then something quite bad happen. Which really spoils my mood for the entire day. No one knows what happen cause i kept it to myself. And obviously i wont write it here if i want to keep it to myself.

Had the long 1.5 hours of GP lesson which we did a very torturous comphrehension. I'm dead once again cause i wrote 4 lines for the application question. It was done on purpose actually cause no matter how long i get i will at most get 2 pathetic marks, so i decided to forgo it and try to aim better for the front section.
Last lesson was bio tutorial which i also din do the tutorial. I was so afraid ms wee would call me but fortunately she called me at the right time cause i prepared a little by looking at bai ting's answer. Ms wee scolded us for playing with sweets throwing today. Another tragic event.

I keep telling myself to stay happy and that no one can take my happiness away. ( i know's it abit drama) But then again, it's hard. Sometimes you really feel terrible when people start to say things about you that you really hate and they continue to blabber as though you are enjoying it. One very good example is lu shan. I think many people also feel it from him. I think he knows he is not very well accepted but he doesnt realise how annoying he can be and the only way to stop such things from happening is to keep his mouth shut. Nevermind, that's just an example. I am not just pin pointing him. There will always be ultra-insensitive people like him around to spoil people's mood. Most of the time, they succeed. I am trying very very hard to feel happy again.
I think i should just be numb and ignore them.. pretend at though i have not heard anything. My ears are closed to bad things. If you can't accept me for who i am (bridget said that yesterday) , then just get lost. Jump down the building if i really irk you so much. Shut your mouth and lead your loser life.
Perhaps i'm exaggerating things. But to me, i just cant stand it. It irks me to the core. THE CORE.
I WONT LET THE DEVIL WIN.

2 Comments:

crossbearer said...: yep. Don't let people spoil your day lah. =) I'm trying really hard too...'cause I'm trying hard to integrate into my class and someone in my class just pissed me off today. bah. people people people.; 3/30/2005 9:29 PM
Tazzie said...: Each school has its irritants.. jus don't be one of them. Cheers~!; 4/04/2005 9:32 PM

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3/29/2005

not a good day.

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