4/30/2005

Evergreen

Have you every watched the Channel 5 drama serial Growing up? I used to like that show for its very drama mama storyline which is always so heart-wrenching and at the same time, irritating.You get what i mean? Anyways, that's not the point. The point is, i went to Salvation Army Family Mart today and feeling i get there is as though i am acting in the drama serial Growing up. Do you know type of clothes they sell there are like those you see in the 60s. In addition, the background music was Carpenter's, Every Shalalala..every wo-oh wo-oh..still shine.. WHAT's UP MAN. Oh yah, i saw the chinese bridal dress which the ghost i saw wore. It was being sold there at a dirt cheap price of $20. It looks like this:

You may not be able to see it clearly, try clicking on it to get a larger image. I took it using my camera phone which doesn't really capture details. The worst piece of clothing i saw was the men's one which looked like:
Doesn't it look like the waiter's uniform then?
I din know Salvation Army also does offersuch an experience to its visitors other than selling items for donations.
In essence, i had a culture shock. (i learnt this new word today).
But then i must say the items sold were really cheap . They had this bridal dress collection, which contains a whole series of wedding gowns from the red chinese cheongsam type to the modern western fluffy type. The shocking thing is that they are only priced at $20 each. That's very very cheap in contrast to the brand new ones which costs up to a thousand. But i really wonder who would buy them. I saw blazers too, but i din check the price. Maybe those who want cheap blazers can go there yah.
I went there after band today which ended rather early. Sectionals was scolding time. I shall take it in a very positive manner. I mean, scoldings are fine as long they are justified. Tze was probably possessed by some revengeful ghost today. (ok, just joking.). That's it for sectionals k. No juicy details available to ensure my safety.
You know, sometimes i wonder if the the Ozone hole has shifted to singapore. The sun rays penetrates so hard onto us everyday. The heat is so intense that it feels like being cooked alive or imagine yourself wrapped in an aluminium foil in the microwave.
Rivulets of perspiration kept streaming down my face as though i have an infinite storage of water in me.
Nevertheless, the condition is great for tanning. But must be careful though, in case you overshoot your tanning time and get heatstroke. That would be so comical. Dont ever let that happen to you or i will really laugh my head off.
I attempted to go tanning today but upon arrival, i realise the pool was shaded by the blocks of houses. Waste my time. In the end, i just hangout in the Jacuzzi area, sitting there like a dead body, until 2 pesty little boys interrupted my spa-like experience. First of all, i must clarify that the jacuzzi pool is not a place for swimming and worse still, diving. That naive stranger boy actually jumped into the pool while i was relaxing myself. Having such huge surface area, he splashed quite a bit of water around. Ok, i was tolerant and i forgave him because he helped me press the jacuzzi button which activated the jaccuzzi when it stopped. I took a mental note on that boy's face. Dont let me catch him doing that again.
I'm craving for food again. I want to eat this...

(abalone larh)

Anyways, did you notice something? I uploaded more than one photo in a single entry!! Congratulate me on my improved IT manipulation skills quick! Actually, I found this good website imageshack.com which allows me to upload photo without even signing up or creating any password! Isnt that great? Furthermore, it's free and instant. WOOHOO~~! Now i can upload more photos.. Hahah..people beware. Your photo might just end up here someday.

posted by BenJ at Saturday, April 30, 2005 6 kaLipoks

4/29/2005

Child abuse

I think i cant think of anything more cruel.

Feed your child until he gets toothache.
Then let it shit and accumulate around him.
Switch off the lights.
Last step, punish non-stop.

I can't imagine that scenario and everytime i think of it, i feel like laughing. It's so cruel yet i find it really funny. In fact, i have seen it happen before, in tamagochi. Carrot's tamagochi was like some prisoner of war, letting people torture it as described in the above. In the end, it became the ugly helmet head creature.

Day started off with me running 2.4 which is 6 rounds around that maroon rubbery track again. What a way to start the day, esp with such hot and humid weather. Don't need to run also perspire like a roasted suckling pig, no i prefer peking duck.
Mr lulu got angry today twice. I dont really know the exact reason though but it's quite scary to see him get angry with people, cause the tension gets quite intense until he might just explode any moment. That's quite terrible esp when i am sitting in the middle. I mean, it's not that i dont let him fight, but then dont get me involved cans. Later i do nothing also become abused. People nowadays, getting more and more out of hand one can. Then the second time he got angry, he resolved it with a customary handshake, which i felt was, too drama mama for me to carry on watching. I thought that was for primary school. That scene was far to innocent for mr lulu to actually do that. You get what i mean? I dont know what to say, but he's quite pathetic cause everyone dislikes him and it is so evident in PW today.
You know when huay woon (our teacher), flashed the transparency about the groupings, everyone was like searching for 2 names, their own and you-know-who. After having done so, you will hear like several sigh of relief. I sympathise with the group who got him. Doesn't it feel like striking toto?
In the midst of typing this, i feel quite worried if one day he really chance upon my blog.
But still must carry on.(WAHAHAHA!!)
You know he tried to flirt with this silly chem relief j3 teacher which he describes as pretty smart and hardworking. Goodness gracious. He should really look at himself in the mirror. Chicken backside. i feel evil. Anyways, that j3 teacher is really quite useless sia. Hear her out of tune and shaky voice really makes me go into coma, not only sleep cans. Go into coma. The worst thing is she is very rude. She pointed at me and said This person arh never wear shoe one leh. Excuse me woman, i have i name. And so what if i never wear shoes(i just took a shower you see). I like to feel at home cannot is it. Only lulu will bother to entertain her. Go lah, be lulu's wife and let him abuse you everyday. See your face still intact.
I think i accumulated more bad karma today, maybe Ahnan the hell gaurd will catch me one day.

Yesterday, while i was sleeping, i was awoke by a very tickly feeling around my thigh. I tossed over and i got a shock of my life. I saw a girl in the chinese red bridal dress, with a red veil on her head. She was a pitiful ghost i must say. She committed suicide after her husband ran away. She waited for a full 3 hours for her husband to lift the veil, but realised he had run away. Disappointed and depressed, she jumped down the building in red, signifying that she will be back for revenge. Ever since, she attended getai every sunday. Never had she needed to worry about a shortage of seats, because she always had seats reserved in the front row. Occassionally, she will stage performances, singing her favourite chinese song, Wo de yi ke xin, zhi gei yi ge ren.
I found out something very important about her, she's a muslim ghost cause she pins a green ribbon, laced with silver linings on it. Hence, i deduced a special formula to ward her off, sprinkle pork floss. (i am not a single bit racist)
I took a photo of her. I will feel really really bad if i really post her photo here. Ok, i better not although it will be really funny.
Adapted from True files
(Only those who saw her before will know what am i talking about. )

Today's funny when i keep making up stories and teasing people. Did you watch A bug's life? Siokteng looks like the ji za ant.

Anyways,
I did not bring my handphone to school today cause i forgot to charge it yesterday. I realise how important handphone is to me. I feel lost and insecure without my handphone. I feel as though i lost touch with the real world. Hahaa.. i'm beginning to be drama agains.
I read recent article that mentioned how people actually use handphones to wriggle out of awkward scenarios, for e.g pretending to read a message or pretend to have a call. Have you done that before? I have leh. But i guess you wont know.

In 10 hours more, i will be back in the RI bandroom.

posted by BenJ at Friday, April 29, 2005 4 kaLipoks

4/28/2005

that inconvenient image: snack club

Recently, i tune in to 93.3 every morning on the way to school. Usually, i listen to morning madness but it can get boring at times when they play those rock songs. Can you imagine yourself hearing rock songs with those heavy metals and drum beats drumming right into your semi-conscious, drowsy, sleep-mode mind. So yah, i tuned in to 93.3 which started this new programme which reads out your daily horoscope.
Do you know they said that my schoolwork would be successful today. Zhou cong qing(the shorty dj) read that i had 5 (out of 5) stars for school work today.
Naturally, i was happy, especially when i have chem spa today.
Anyways, i need to announce something before i go on. THAT STUPID HOROSCOPE THING WAS FAKE. It cheated me of my feelings can. My chem spa just went wrong today and i dont feel like elaborating on it. In essence, i got the 3rd part wrong. My mind just went blank, and poof! Everything disappeared into thin air. I got 0.7 instead of 7. Guess what i did? Guess! !

I multiplied my answer by 10. Ingenious sia.
Ok, that was stupid. seriously, i multiply by 10 for no reason, no reason at all. So fine, i got it wrong. Anyways, to console myself, the entire spa only worth a peanutty 2 marks in the a level exam. and what's done cannot be undone.
I can't believe i actually embraced my mistake so gracefully.
By the way, i want to try the real spa, as in the one with massage and stress relieve one, when i have the money. It's cool.

On my way home today, i was sitting in front 1 very angsty girl who had a lot of pent-up feelings. I can sense it. Actually, you know how i know? She was complaining about her friends in school to another innocent,quiet friend of hers. You know she complain until her voice became hoarse and she was so loud that i could not listen to TV mobile.
Peace and tranquility came back when she alighted the bus. For a moment, i realise the significance of peace to me. Thanks to that stranger girl who allowed me to appreciate peace better.

A recent trend observed showed that 90% of the student around Singpaore dislikes PW. Including me who edited my PI 3 times. The worst thing is that i have a very unco-operative printer who gives me shit-attitude everytime i need it the most. Do you know what it did?!
It kept sucking in papers and crushing them up. I wonder if my printer is haunted. It sucks the paper furiously , types a few sentences to spoil the paper and then crushes it, giving me no chance to even recycle paper. WHAT'S UP MAN.
So i had to ask baiting help me print. Such a helpful soul. Must specially mention it here.

You know what, i think i am addicted to blogging. I am blogging quite extensively nowadays, you better keep up with me. Sometimes, i blog twice a day but most of the time i blog once everyday. those of you who are slow arh.. like liching arh, better be more updated. Later you dont know what am i talking about.

I feel encouraged when people enjoy reading my blog.

Snack club. Forbidden item: Twizzlers.

posted by BenJ at Thursday, April 28, 2005 9 kaLipoks

4/27/2005

What's up

Yo! yo !
What's up man!
haha.. you must be wondering simi tai zi (in hokkien please). Anyways, nothing, just trying to act cool. I realise i have been using hokkien quite a bit nowadays and i think it's fun. Hokkien, crude it may sound, is fun when you create funny phrases with it. Let me share a few of my favourites here k.

1. Pattern zhuay kah badminton : verb A good mix of english and hokkien to describe a person who does a lot of extraneous actions that makes him look like a drama mama.
e.g Ah huay, you don't whole day act enthu, join this join that, really pattern zhuay kah badminton.

2. Oon oon jiar bee hoon : verb It describes a plan/idea that is very feasible and effective.
e.g Beng arh, your project idea extremely innovative, oon oon jiar bee hoon, steady lah! , sure get A1 one.

3. Swee swee buay zao zui : verb usually used to express beauty in something, esp during a mahjong game in a set of tiles.
e.g Lian, your cards very nice arh, swee swee buay zao zui, sure win one.

4.Ai pi gho ai qi :verb Used to describe some one who wants to get something cheap yet good (literal translation: want cheap still want fresh)
e.g Seng seng, you choose vegetable hor, Ai pi gho ai qi, very hard to find one leh.

That's all i can remember so far. Next time when i think of more then i update it again. It's cool sia. If you really dont understand hokkien then that's too bad. But i also do have some english favs like drama mama, shocking asians and yayapapaya etc.

Today i had loads of fun making fun of adriel. He's such a nice person that when you disturb him, he just laugh and, at the same time humouring me. That's why i cant stop teasing him. I think he cant really stand me but i do check occassionally if he is fine and still mentally stable. (in case he really faint from suppressing to much angst inside). Adriel attempted to sell friendship bands to me as CIP. Being the kind-hearted soul, i kindly agreed to take a look. He fished out an attractive looking photo album which contained the bands. Pretty impressive i thought, expecting nice bands inside to arouse my interest to purchase it.
FAT HOPE.
hahah.. terrible sia me. Those bands look like tie on the trees or whatsoever one cans. Odd colour combinations like pink and yellow(?!). Plus, it is sold at an unbelieveable price of 2 bucks, sufficient for anyone to buy a plate of chicken rice.I can buy like 4 whole spindles of threads wor. Haha. i think i'm really mean, never buy still talk so much. haha.. sorry sia adriel. But you're a nice person. I treat you like human k.

After band, i went to eat with novella and tze for dinner. As usual, we kept laughing about tze and her peeping-jane tendencies. Do you know what she did? She wore a snorkling kit to swimming pool and peep at young boys. And you know what's her motto for life? Ning ke sha chuo bu ke fang guo. (rather kill wrongly than kill none), which means she will peep at old men if circumstances arises. no wonder her eyes keep growing the pus bag.
Anyways, i just wasted your time if you read the above. It's purely fictitious. Planned by innovative and creative me. I'm great, isnt it?
Novella and i were kpo PI today. I mean private investigators. We attempted to capture some scandalous affair, but to no avail. My phone camera cant zoom larh... very hard to capture a clear shot.
Dont want to elaborate anymore.
We took a taxi home.
Comfort taxis, you better thank me for my continuous support.

posted by BenJ at Wednesday, April 27, 2005 1 kaLipoks

Labour Day

I was debating to myself whether i should blog today cause i'm really tired plus the weather is so darn hot. It just makes me drowsy. Still clad in my uniform, i almost fell asleep in front of the television but fortunately, i pulled myself together and took a shower. Refreshed a little, i popped a vitamin c pill and started blogging. I love blogging.

I din make a mistake. Today is labour day, for Tairo. After several social sessions with Mr Frogo, she finally decided to mate. Mating session began at around 2pm today. Lights were out and at last, 2 baby boys were brought to earth! Cutes isnt it? Although many people commented that the babies looked like shit cause it's black. Tairo is such a loving mother you know, she actually gave her son flowers today because she is going to die tomorrow. Poor tairo, we will miss her. Our first successfully mated tamagochi, our pride and honour. Waha. Dramatic sia. It's just a toy benjamin.

During Gp, mrs b got really angry. First time i see her so angry and blabbering a chain of lecturing because many people din bring the worksheet. She said we demonstrated sheer disrespect and upset her wor... So sey sia.. I like to hear GP teachers scold, so sophisticated yet impacting. But i realised one similarity among our teachers, their anger can last less than a minute. Afterwhich, their face will change colour and resume back to normal. That's what i call good anger management.
Haha.it was rather funny during the presentation. Our group, was left with liu pei and i, courtesy of leeying who came to take attendance only, making dr.c thought he saw ghost.
Having lost a great deal of face and embarrassing myself most of the time already, i decided not to present and gave liu pei the honour to present. Poor creature was she today. She understands the passage as much as i do, which is VERY SHALLOWLY. And our transprancy has only around 8 lines, written big and legibly to spread out the entire page, giving others an illusion that we have done a lot. But essentially, it's just crap. Crap, you understand? Plus, she purposely ini miney inimo and point to our group to start first. She's too much k. She purposely add words to the well-known nursery rythme and made sure she pointed at our group. How terrible, considering our work was done 5 minutes before she started.
I attempted to help liu pei by trying to answer b-jie's question. I must really thank michelle k who came to help us by being liu pei's loudspeaker. B-jie identified her a being loud and asked her to amplify liu pei. Although she was abent the previous lesson and has no single cloue about the passage, she managed to pretend quite well and wriggle out of the tense situation then. Waha.. Anyways, we were done in a jiffy and b din really complain too much. That's good.

Then finally, that arduous 1.5 hours of GP ended. WOOHOO! i'm exhibiting bad attitude here
After school, i went to mugg in the library. The environment is very conducive to study. I love the air-conditioning there,especially in such a hot day. I did the basic questions of trigo which i am already quite satisfied. Zhixiang and lowell were there too.

If you're a librarian (i was), avoid reading the following paragraph.

I ate in the library.
Let me share with you a method to eat in the library without being spotted k. Just before you enter the library right, turn right a little and you will see a shelf of postcards. Choose your favourite one and sit at a table not facing the counter or near the library staff room. Then carefully staple the postcard which you picked on the packaging of your snack. Ta da! You're done! This method works esp well with small snacks like cheese combos or pocky. It looks as though you are appraciating the postcard when you eat. How sophisticated sia. Maybe i should submit this idea to tan kah kee young inventors'.

Then i went for band and came home feeling really really tired. I did not open my bag at all.
Eh, the time is correct for this entry.

posted by BenJ at Wednesday, April 27, 2005 4 kaLipoks

4/25/2005

Lao Yu sheng!

That was us lao-ing yu sheng just a week before the release of o levels results. Living in the believe that such an auspicious act will bring us good luck and results, we made our imitation yu sheng using beehoon(if you can see) and a piece of fried fish to symbolise nian nian you yu. We lao-ed a total of 6 times so that we can score an l1r5 of 6. This method worked k, at least for most. I wasn't in the picture as i was the camera man. Anyway, i made this small picture in card like forms to give them as souvenir free. You know that time a councillor was promoting his polariod shots which costas 2 dollars or something for1.
Anyway, what a happy scene that was! I like it when our class can really sit together and enjoy ourselves.
I still can remember how i almost transfer school after first three months. I really really almost change for good reasons like distance and other things. But i did not go afterall that consideration and discussion. I wonder what would it be like now if really transferred. All thanks to my friends who kept convincing me to stay and i dont regret staying here. (but sometimes i really do wonder if it would be better to go). Everything has been fine and my class is getting better and i am liking it much more. Do you know I used to say i want to change class like 3 times a day during the first few months... Oh well. Everything's fixed and i wonder how will my 2 years be.
Have you every wondered what are you going to do after A levels?

I have always wanted to be a doctor, a paediatrician to be specific. But if i really get sick of studying, i will just stop there and be a GP. I heard that nus only accepts 200 plus students a year and that is like how pathetic. I believe rj itself already have more than that, not considering other schools! If my results are good, i think i will study there. However, i would really like to experience studying overseas. That would be how cool.. I want to go US or UK despite how much they might discriminate me. I want to experience the western culture and slang like them. I want to be a doctor there which is more appealing, considering the pay and environment. Singapore has far to many doctors and it just isn't as cool to be a doctor here. haha.. i dont know but i just see it this way.
Then again, i have to consider the price i have to pay. It is extremely expensive and my parents would probably have to sell my house to finance my education. Perhaps my mother can set up a shop in chinatown there! or she can be a part-time baby sitter! That would be how cool again. then she can slang like the ang mohs. like me!
Let me continue dreaming.

One of my secondary school friend(xinying larh), is going to UK to study a levels. How fortunate she is! Anyways, before that, do you know how much she has to pay. 6500 pounds a term. Ok, let me do the calculations for you. 6500 pounds=19300 sing dollars. Considering 3 terms a year, that would amount to 58500. To complete her eduacation which would take 2 years, she will have to pay a grand sum of $117000!!! And that's just a levels education. Now you must appreciate how fortunate you are to study in such a big clean new school, paying only like $30 a month. To think i was still complaining about how cold the school is.

Enough said. Today's irritating monday.
Physics mock spa was rather terrible you know. I was stupid to waste so much time adjusting the cotton thread. In fact, i set up the experiment pretty quickly but i just dont dare to raise my hand to call the teacher so i waited until a substantial number of people raised their hands, while i secretly see what the teachers check and adjust mine. By the end of the experiment, i only manage to draw a skimpy curve and a table. Under the comment on anomaly section, I wrote I have no anomaly(actually i have) , very sneakily cause time's up. At least i acknowledged..haha.
I dont know if i was sitting in the view of sight of B-jie today or what. She just kept calling me out of no reason during lesson. NO reason can. Keep using me as an example to crack those humourless jokes. Like,distilling me and get dont know what essence and asking people how would that smell like. Guess what was she trying to explain when she said that.
She was explaining the term essentially.

posted by BenJ at Monday, April 25, 2005 3 kaLipoks

4/24/2005

Aunty May

Aunty May (i can see lowell laughing behind)

Surprise surprise! I actually uploaded a photo on my blog! Amazing sia. I cannot believe i am actually becoming more and more high-tech as days go by. I downloaded a programme to upload photos. But i face one big problem which probably answers ur question to why i uploaded only 1 out of the so many pictures i took.
The problem is, everytime i upload one photo, it will be placed in one isolated entry which means if i were to upload 20 photos, 20 entries will be creeated. That's how silly! I need to figure out how to put all the photos in one entry first before i upload more. Anyone can help? I really have a lot of pictures to share and embarrass people like aunty may. Wahah!! Fine, call me evil.

This photo is just one random photo taken out from my collecction of 1so3L photos. Aunty May, you should be thankful i chose to feature you here today k(just like how models got featued on the front cover), although you only showed half of your face. I mean, whats the point of covering your mouth. What's the point?!You should learn from tessie mah, cover the whole face. I know you still want your face to be seen one right. That's why i feature you here :)

I just came back from swimming. The weather is too darn hot. sizzling hot and i cant stay at home any moment longer. I will be cooked alive. Thus, i went to swim again and sun tan at the same time. Today is my first official suntan session. It was really hot but in order to succeed in my tanning, i just persevered and dip into the pool occassionally to cool myself down. It was quite relaxing actually. I swam for about 1.5 hours and decided to go for lunch. I ate KFC just now. KFC is rather expensive and i am starting to wonder if they price their items anyhow. Seriously. I order the same thing and got charged differently at different occassions. A 2 pc chicken meal can cost as low as 3.95 or as high at 7.50. What a big difference! Oh well, i better stop eating fast foods anyway. Fast food's really unhealthy, considering how much trans fat they use in their cooking. Macdonalds still have the cheek to claim that they are healthy and it is actually up to us(the consumer) to keep ourselves healthy. Rubbish. They should just close down and fewer people will die from heart attacks or stroke. Anyways, control your diet yah. I think i should abstain myself from j8. There are just too many unhealthy temptations there, such as xxl chicken and paparoti. better control myself. If you see me queueing up for any of those please yank me out of the queue and bring me to the bus stop.
Enough said about bad food. Let's talk about good food.
Good food as in healthy food. I think i am healthy. Why? I am drinking green tea with cherry tomatoes now. Green tea is a good antioxidant and helps to get rid of toxic stuff in your body. It also helps to reduce fat absporption which is particularly important to me now cuase i just ate 2 crispy drumsticks,along with the skin(high in saturated fat). I am also eating cherry tomatoes with have 0 calories and contains relatively large amounts of vitamin C, good for epithelial tissue repair and also fibres which aids peristalsis.
Oh no. i am begining to sound like a dietician. Actually, that's all i know. haha.. i just exhausted my 16 years of food knowledge here. There's nothing to envy about. haha.. mad.

I better get down to my work now. Byes.

posted by BenJ at Sunday, April 24, 2005 2 kaLipoks

4/23/2005

Infection

I slept awhile after creating my previous post and went for dinner at jurong east. That's a familiar place and i miss the atmosphere there because if you dont know, that was where rvians would hangout most of the time. Just like rafflesians to j8. It's the same. That's not the point by the way.
I went there to watch the horror movie, infection. I watched it with my family just now and i must say it takes one with high intellectual ability to understand that show. Ok, i confess, i dont have. i dont understand what the show is trying to portray. Anyway,inthe end everyone died. I would give 3 out of 5 stars to that show for it's frightening sound effects and occassional appearance of obscene ghosts.
Essentially,the movie featured 4 nurses and 2 doctors who were up with some infection that cause their internal organs to liquefy into green slimy substances. Quite fake looking though. Comparing with previous movies such as Ju-on and dark waters, i would say it is not as good. Juon was scarier because that annoying juon boy appeared everywhere from the toilet bowl to the washing machine which was quite frigtening because they will purposely play those sudden noise.
The only frightening part in Infection was the sounds effects. They delibrately play some loud and sudden noise to frighten you even if nothing is going on. If you want extra excitment or adrenaline pumping, go watch it in those ulu cinemas such as those in jurong east and clementi's empress place. The atmosphere itself in the cinema is enough to give you goosebumps.
The following incident may contain explicit information. If you are not comfortable with human excretions please avoid reading the following paragraph. Here goes.
After the movie,I went into the handicap toilet cause the male toilet was locked out of no reason. A horrendous stench overwhelmed me. The stench enveloped and almost suffocated me to death. Guess what. I saw a few pieces of oval-shaped shit. Yes, shit.Oh yah, to be more specific. The shit wasnt in the toilet bowl. The shit was lying beside the toilet bowl. BESIDE, i must emphasized. Dried and stinky. (to think i actually elaborated so much). It stinks to the core and i had to minimise the number of breaths i take by minimising my movement around. it was extremely disgusting. I urinated in front of a few pieces of shit. That was not the worse. To avoid looking at it, i looked up to the ceiling which gave me another shock of my life. There was a piece of the ceiling missing. This made my imagination run wild.. you must understand i just watched a horror film yah. I kept imagining a pair of eyes looking through the opening. So in that short 2 minutes of toilet-visit, i had shit stench+ghostly imagination. I hurriedly finish my business and went out to take a deep breath. Notice i din say wash hands. Haha..i din wash hands cause i really needed breath. Who knows the tap water might be urine..

Now i'm back here again blogging. Jiexuan, i think your computer got virus can. Lucky i was sharp enough to spot it or else mine will also be infected. I saw my junior's nick saying msn virus on the loose which immediately aroused my attention and manage to cancel the file that jiexuan's computer tried to send me in time. (drama sia..)
I'm feeling better now after scaring myself. Unhappy things just fade away and i'm glad to have nice friends around me who bothers. Sigh. i hope my mood wont affect others mood. Whenever i;m upset i just sit alone and think. That's my personality, and afterwhich i will straighten out my thoughts and everything will be fine.
Ok, 4C outing was cancelled because many cant make it. Expected larh, but we will still have one in june and i believe more people will be able to make it. anyways, its better this way cause i have more time to do my homework and i foresee a busy week ahead. Having band for the first 3 days of the week, leaving with thursday and friday(thank god). I reckon i wont be able to complete my tutorials as usual cause everytime i come home from band, i will just plonk on the bed and sleep my way to the next morning. What a life i am leading.

posted by BenJ at Saturday, April 23, 2005 0 kaLipoks

sianz.

I can't find a better substitute for the word sian. I try to keep my blog to proper english as far as i can but i just can't find a word to express my sian-ness. Sian means tired, bored and moodless. You see, that's why i cant find an english word to represent tired,bored and moodless all at one time. If you know of any,please tell me so i cant stop saying sian.

i was really sian today. I struggled to wake up at 8am this morning and had breakfast with grandma. I hate to wake up so early on a saturday morning. It's such a turn off. It's a weekend..can you just let me sleep a little more. I'm not referring to my grandma, i had to wake up early cause i had band. I arrived late again, despite putting so much effort in preventing myself to be late such as gobbling my wanton mee and teh-peng. I have a tendency to be late and it's not a habit. I have potential to be early one k. But i dont know why i am always late in the end.
I felt super sian cause i had no energy and mood to laugh. Every body was so quiet and hardly anyone spoke. I was anti social and did not want to talk because everytime i say something someone will comment. I hate that. Why cant just let me say what i want to say. I am not blaming anyone , because i know i'm can be quite annoying at times. Why am i like that. Sigh. Why cant i be more matured and firm? I like my crazy self but i cant be like that forever.
I just cant put what i want to say in words here. It's hard.
Everything becomes so fake nowadays.
I typed a paragraph about things that happened lately, but i deleted it. I dont want to be judged again. Some things are better left unsaid. I dont think it is fair to judge a person by his appearance or from what others say although i am guilty of that. It's really not fair to the person especially if you are the person. Imagine people gossiping about you behind your back, spreading untruth about you all around. How would you feel?
Perhaps i am thinking too much. I keep telling myself not to care what others think about me but nevetheless, i will be affected.

The weather's very very hot today and this doesn't make things any better.
Tomorrow there's a 4C class gathering which only about 15 people is coming. I really like my sec4 class and am just too happy to see them again. We're people of the same frequency.

posted by BenJ at Saturday, April 23, 2005 7 kaLipoks

4/22/2005

Welcome to the traffic lights.

I'm happy today.

Today's a good day although i woke up with swollen eyes. I slept too much. Haha. sleep too much also will get swollen eyes one k. I warn u first. I slept a full 10 hours last night which felt super good.
Tairo was tortured today again, by the same people. As usual right. I'm just hoping she will turn out fine and not like the super-thick lips one or the helmet-head like jared's. By the way, if you dont know, let me introduce my daughter and her friends. (same me the trouble of repeating as well)

Lyn and I are experimenting an alternative family structure you see. It's called tamagochi family,just like nuclear family and so on. We have a daughter, Tairo. She has a boyfriend Frogo which belong to leeying's (she's a single mother). To date, Tairo is only 2 days old(=2 tamgochi years). Both of them dislike Boopi(jared's; single-parent) cause he either gives shit or ghost to frighten them. Before that he will give them false hopes by wrapping those 'gifts' in nice ribbon boxes. Lastly, we have chew! who was cute but now developed super thick lips. She is charlotte's daughter(single-parent). By the way, chew! and Boopi have a thing together.

That was a short commentary on Tairo and her friends.

Early this morning, we had PE. We run 5 rounds around the red rubbery track(this colour). It was challenging for me who thought i cant make it through the 5th round. But i did! That's so satisfying. It feels great to achieve something you thought u couldn't. Then we played handball which was quite fun.
Project work day today again. We still did not accomplish much today and i need to hand in the PI next week! horrid.
After school, we had class lunch. yeah. I drank tomato juice. Dont cringe with disgust. Tomato is nice and healthy. It's 0 calories and liching dont believe me. Really, it's 0 calories. The best thing is that it isn't expensive. It's merely a worthwhile 1.20(sometimes it's 1.10,depends on the aunty's mood

OH MY GOODNESS. THE BEST PART OF MY ENTRY DISAPPEARED OUT OF NO REASON!!!! IDIOTIC I SPENT SO MUCH EFFORT AND TIME TYPING THINGS THAT HAPPENED IN THE LIBRARY AND DINNER. I DEDICATED A PART OF IT TO TZE AND HER RETARDEDNESS. ARH ARH ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS THIS LONG

HERE! THAT LONG!!!
~#!$#$^%$%&^^%**(&^(($&

posted by BenJ at Friday, April 22, 2005 3 kaLipoks

4/21/2005

Tairo

I feel like laughing.
Terribly.

Just 2 days ago i dedicated an entry to Jolli. Yesterday, before she could even wake up to say bye , she was brain dead. Serious. Jolli was brain dead. Her mother lynnete dropped her on the floor. HAHAHA!! I thought it was funny though quite tragic. Anyways, lyn bought us another new one who is called Tairo. Cool name huh.( copyrighted) Lowell and zhi xiang attempted to murder it today by feeding snacks NON-STOP and punishing it when it gets toothache. Terrible people. But after it got into my hands, she is all safe. I helped her lose weight and it evolded into some strawberry like thing which is cute. I like to see it when it makes friends with leeying's. They're a match i must say. Leeying's kept giving tairo flowers,balls and cakes and vice versa. But that stupid rude boopi (carrot's) kept giving shit and ghosts to scare tairo only. What a pet. The pet reflects so truly on the owner can. Hahah..just joking.
Digimon then outdated k. Although i dont mind buying one if it's not expensive. It's like reviving my childhood memories. HAha.. I starting to worry about my brain development. I'm seriously premature. I am 17 years old. Ok, i must get that right, i am 17 years old!
by the way u people go get tamagochi. it's fun.

I had a lot to say yesterday but as i was dilligently doing my homework (rare k), i did not have the time to blog. While i was doing my tutorials, i felt so stupid. Even the simplest question took me so long to do! What's up with me.
Now my adrenaline has faded off and i cant remember what i want to say.

I'm feeling weird in class. I'm still searching for a right place to fit myself in. I really dont know. I hate it when i enter a tutorial class, searching for a place to seat. Maybe you wont understand, but it's the same feeling i get. I am still in the process of "settling down" and searching for a right place. I wouldn't say i have fitted comfortably in my class and i dont know if i belong there at all. Perhaps my class lacks "class spirit"? Whatever. I'm just being happy whenever i can.

Today was a super boring day. Mrs kong went through the maths tutorial so fast. She was like qn 1 to 8 any problem? No problem we go on. Then as usual, no sound one lah. And that's it lah cause i only did qn 1-8. I thought do slightly more than half the tutorial should be quite safe..FAT HOPE.
Afterwhich, we had 2 lectures which i attempted to pay close attention too because my deskmates mich and carrot were so attentive and i had no choice. but i must confess i made tairo play with frogo(leeying's) 27 times to improve their relationship. haha..
During GP, jared wad trying to capture a photo of b posing. She was posing with such poise that it reminded me of her nickname b-jie and the associated story of her being a b-grade porn star.
I like it when i critisize her, it's quite entertaining. So far, my favourite entry was "Listen to me" , the one and only entry dedicated to her. I think i were to upload her photo here, my blog counter will burst.

Shocking Asians.

posted by BenJ at Thursday, April 21, 2005 5 kaLipoks

4/19/2005

Jolli

Dear jolli,
I hope you are doing fine and enjoying yourself in lynette's house. I hope you will not disappoint me and evolve into a good-looking creature. (please dont be like jared's ugly shit monster..haha)
Yours sincerely,
Ben.

Haha..finally i bought a tamagochi ! Woohoo! I shared my tamagochi with lynette cause it's really quite expensive and at least i wont get tired of it so easily. We named it jolli cause it looked like a bean. It's a female which means to mate,i need to find a male and so far only jerad's a male but he needs to mate with charlotte. i dont think tamagochi is so high tech to allow a tri-partite relationship. Hope leeying hurry buy one and hope her's a boy. In case you are thinking how outdated i am, using tamagochi in this era, you should really have a look at it. It's really interesting cause there's an infra channel to make friends and if your tamagochi is old yet available, a match maker will appear to help you get a partner. WOW. That's how amazing it is. haha..no i dont get commission selling tamagochi. I think i;m mad. Tutorials dont do go and play tamagochi. horrendous.
By the way, there was filming outside action city today. Lynette and i caught them filming and i took photos of them although i dont know what kacang puteh actress is that. I think it's some malaysian production...visual stage or something like that. I promise to put photos here when i manage to learn how to.
After buying jolli, we went to eat XXL chicken and squid head at old CK while we figure how to operate jolli. We wanted a male but we got a female at the first try so we reset. But still female.. i can actually keep resetting it until i get a boy but thats like so troublesome. Imagine you can do that in real life... terrible. Keeping aborting the baby until you get the desired gender..but i think the woman will probably become infertile in the midst of doing so. Haha.i think i did too much elaboration. By the way, i talk to the XXL chicken shop owner today. She was spying on the shop's business. She was extremely sneaky. Clad in a commoner's t-shirt, she sat in front of the stall, beside lyn and i. Then she saw us drinking joolibean and asked why we din drink her dou nai. At first i was quite shocked. It's weird when a stranger asks why u never drink her dou nai. u get what i mean. it's just wierd. but being the intelligent me, i deduced that she was the shop owner and gave her feedback that her dou nai(soya bean milk) was more expensive than jollibean's. What a spy am i. Maybe next time she reward me with one year's supply of XXL chicken leh.. u never know k.

School was exceptionally dreadful today. PE was super sian cause we had to play touch rugby in a big place with quite good players. I can only play well in small areas with average players u see. After which i took a bath which was extremely nice. It feels great to feel clean and good smelling. Sometimes i really enjoy being alone. I'm a loner by nature i guess. But i also do enjoy the company of my friends. Being alone you dont have to bother about how others may feel or how others feel about you. You just live in ur own world and i like tt.
Maths was very fun actually when the teacher keep giving those funny phrases to help us remember the formula with her irritating nasal voice.
GP. sigh. what a piece of shit i handed in. I had not time to finish writing the other side of the argument and was forced to conclude it. I have a bad feeling she will critisize me the next lesson or the following one when she mark my paper. Then i will have to dedicate another entry to her. By the way, the previous entry dedicated to her was my favourite.
Ms wee will always be my idol. or at least until now. She getting increasingly funny each lesson. She was saying that dr c told his son to chase his daughter and then she laughed quite hysterically suddenly when everyone was silent. haha.!! michelle and ling were laughing so loudly then with the fans-like wave. We set up a fan club for ms wee. Next time we must print a fan club t-shirt with her plasticine face printed huge in the front. She's really funny and she's good. So far the best teacher in my opinion.
I hope i din miss out on anything today. I always realise i miss something out after i publish.. should be nothing lah. oh thanks lowell for choping seat for me. haha.

posted by BenJ at Tuesday, April 19, 2005 7 kaLipoks

4/18/2005

Simple pleasures

Hello, i'm back after a few days of not blogging. I wasnt in the mood to blog larh. My gums looks pretty ok after eating 3 days of antibiotics. Every morning my urine got this antibiotic smell which is quite disgusting.

I went prawning yesterday which was quite fun. In case ypu dont know what is prawning , it is fishing for prawns. yup, u din hear wrongly suagu peoples. I went there with my sister ( farmart) and we rented a rod at a rate of $26 for 3 hours. There were alot of prawns actually but we managed to only hook 9 up. haha..pathetic i know. We kept missing those intelligent but annoying prawns. One prawn even cheated us by stealing the bait and replacing it with cockle shells. Irritating right.dont let me find out which prawn is that or i will barbeque it live.
Then while we are rather impatient and annoyed, a man on the opposite side kept hooking prawns up which i can only watch with jealousy. I dont know how he did it but it's just quite irksome to see someone hooking so many prawns while you just cant get one up.

Today is monday again. I hate mondays. It's such a turnoff. Cant wake up in the morning, drag myself, come to school, feel sleepy. On the whole it's ok like any other day so there's nothing much to update about. Carrot and charlotte bought tamagochi!! It's cute. The mating part is so fun cause you can actually produce a baby in a small machine..although they are afterall, electronic, i still think it's fun. However, it's quite expensive. 30 dollars can.. i should have bought it in bangkok last time when it is only 20 dollars. i can still remember vividly how i bargained for the tamagochi from 25 dollars to 20 dollars then i walk away...
haha..waste the shop owner's time.
So far i haven been able to find one nice looking tamagochi worth buying. I always see pink colour one which is so ugly.
I did not go for band today cause my gums have not totally healed. I love band.( dont laugh)

Today is Chuan yuan's birthday. my best friend in rv of you dont know. Happy birthday.
Wee and i promised to get him the lord of the dance ticket(near exit one). but still ex k. And he is suppose to treat us to dinner.. Fair deal i suppose.
My aim of 1000 hits in 5 days is officially gone. 100 in 5 days seems more realistic.

Today i din talk to aunty may.

posted by BenJ at Monday, April 18, 2005 2 kaLipoks

4/15/2005

sad.

I waited 2 hours to put myself through hell.
My gum swelled with pus yesterday and i knew something bad had happened. I prayed that it would be fine. But it wasn't.
I had a re-infection. The infection aggravated and now it has affected the gum area right inside, almost the root.
The doctor drilled a hole in the base of the affected tooth and pus flowed out. Digusting but true. Then after much cleaning, he closed it and i thought everything was over.
But the worse has yet to come.
In order to remove the pus from the gum, he used some scaling device and dug my gums from the bottom all the way up to the swelling. It was excrutiating. The pain was unbearable but i couldn't do anything. I teared alot.
Now,I have a big maroon coloured hole in my gum which is totally disgusting. And i pray that the infection will go away . It is really serious this time. I was given several medication, including antibiotics. I am really really worried. Sometimes i wonder why everyone else can heal but i can't. Why did my infection come back?
Lord, i pray that my tooth can be cured and the infection will disappear forever.
The dentist told me the outcome of the tooth is not good. And if the infection dont heal,i will be referred to a specialist. That sounded extremely serious i thought. I hope everything will be fine or else i have to undergo more torment.
I came out of the hospital feeling really terrible. I couldn't say a thing. Even with anaesthesia, my gum still hurt. It really really feels horrid to have your gum being treated like that and being uncertain about what will happen next.
I'm hoping that everything will turn out fine. I dont want to go for any sort of operation.

Sigh. why happiness won't last. I was just so happy a few days ago and was looking forward to everything but why must it end so quickly.
I am not going for band tomorrow with my gum in such a state.

posted by BenJ at Friday, April 15, 2005 11 kaLipoks

4/14/2005

SpA

D.c : "Don't wash your burette like tt, can see your armpit hair. Must shave arh. seriously. "

My goodness, can you imagine tt. Fortunately, this time this din happen to me or else i will dedicate this entire entry to D.c. It happened to one unfortunate classmate of mine. Identity not to be disclose to avoid embarrassment. By the way, it was a female classmate. I laughed until my whole body was vibrating can. I really cant believe he actually said that. Terrible.
This happened during chem mock spa. Extremely funny. Disgusting though.

Better not elaborate too much.
Today's pretty much the same and tomorrow's friday!! YEAH! I love fridays. It's great to end the week with a short day. haha..sean i know you must be jealous now.
By the way, i ate malay stall today and i spent 2.70 on a plate of simple meal with only 3 dishes to go along. How expensive can tt get. You know in RV, i point point point also less than 2 dollars...In rj canteen, you either queue forever for ok food or dont queue and pay a lot. Which one do you choose? I even took a photo of my meal today and if i ever get to know how to use the upload photo programme, i will put it here. During lunch, lowell carrot and i kept teasing MaYY about her childhood lover. which was extremely funny and i guess may luah could not really stand us. I took 2 forks and stole May's spoon. out of point. anyway, today's class lunch was abit more successful. Hope we get that everyday.

My gum swelledquite badly. It should not swell and should get better instead. So i fixed another urgent appointment tomorrow. The nurse told me to come at 8.30 which meant i have to skip school.. BUT i dont want. So i arranged to go at 1.30 which means i have to wait a long long time cause it would be very very crowded. I'm quite worried for my tooth.

I had another weird dream last night. There is always so much going on when i sleep. I want to rest one can. Is there a method to stop dreaming. I dreamt that it is my sister's wedding( again) and i was suppose to play some piano concerto. haha..i only grade 2 for goodness sake. The worst thing was i forgot to bring my scores..haha.. so drama sia. I dont know why i keep dreaming of weird things these days..

posted by BenJ at Thursday, April 14, 2005 4 kaLipoks

4/13/2005

Password

After much efforts, i finally managed to sign in to my blogger account.I forgot my password. I tried all the variations of my name in order to get my password and username matching. I even wrote a letter to blogger support to get my password but they replied me a useless link to the FAQ page.

Today's my short day with only one prac and 2 lectures. I love wednesdays the best, followed by fridays.

My OG table disappeared once again this morning. Pathetic. But it got revived after more of us came and form a small gathering. I hope our og can continue to survive cause i have no where else to go in the morning.
Bio prac was very fun cause we did some beads experiment. We made beads using yeast.. interesting right. Ms wee said my watch is nice while she was accessing my dilution. See good taste people think alike one k. I bought 6 watches from bangkok in some wholesale place and each watch only costs like 6 dollars. dont be jealous. And oh, my index number changed. no long that inauspicious number 13 anymore! woohoo! i'm 12. number 12.
During lectures, i din learn anything again. Who ask them let me sit at some ulu corner near the exit. Cannot even see the screen clearly can. In the end i just kept talking to liching and lowell about some crappy things. Liching keeps lagging behind..Oh we played bingo too. i won 2 out of 3. I am always winning i dont know why. if you want to challenge me please send in your resume for me to approve.
Anyways, i promise to thank lowell here for 2 things. 1. For helping me pick up my eraser. 2. lending me copy notes is it? i forgot. something along that line. Thanks arh.
Today i accumulated more bad karma. I laugh at photos. I laugh at people's names. I attempted to walk away with the ice-cream without paying aka. stealing. Dont learn from me k. I am a bad example.
I watched the softball teams warm up. You din hear wrongly, Warm up. Haha.. they started so late that i really had to leave. Lowell explained to me how to play tt game 3 times and i finally understood. Practical part is another story.
I went home around 3.30 pm today. I went swimming again! everytime i see the clear blue waters i just feel like jumping in, regardless how unappealing i may look. haha. you know what i mean. I like to swim when there is no one swimming and i can have the whole pool by myself, enjoying a world by myself. sorry for being so drama mama again ,can't help it. I still haven used the other facilities like the steam room and karaoke room. Should be fun. Attempted to do a bit of tanning but then the sun went down, threatening to rain. In the end i made the pool oily due to the sun tanning oil. Haha..I saw a loh mai kai cover in the pool. Disgusting sia. I think must be those construction workers..horrendous. Pay them to do this kind of things. Then i went to sushi tei for dinner.
Talking about annoying people, i really detest those cyclist who refuses to cycle on the pavement and delibrately cycle on the road. really dont understand them. Later let the car bang then blame the driver. Seriously, i always have an urge to bang them when i see these people. Such an eyesore can.
My web counter's pathetic. Day 1 only got 34 people, out of which 4 is i visit myself one. I think i cant reach my target of 1000 anymore. 100 seems more realistic.

May luah.

posted by BenJ at Wednesday, April 13, 2005 1 kaLipoks

4/12/2005

i know i shouldn't be doing this

Terrible. While all my friends are listening to lectures, doing tutorials, bearing the 1.5 hrs of gp lesson, what am i doing?
BLOGGING.(comfortably, at home)
How terrible am i. I woke up comfortably at 10 am, ate breakfast,switch on the com and here am i.
But then, come to think of it, you cant really blame me for missing school today cause i have exhausted all my energy yesterday and i cant possibly summon more energy for today.
Anyway i doubt most of the band people did not go to school today.Currently, I am thinking of an excuse and the safest so far is fever. Better go check the colour and name of the medicine in case dr.c checks. I sound like an amateur in skipping lessons i realise.
In fact, i have been taking too many days off. Very unlike the usual me who is ever so obedient. (dont fall of the chair). The last time i took mc to go sydney can..haha. pro sia. once again, dont envy me. you must know i have a very good rapport with doctors around my estate. .(as if)
Hope i dont miss much today.

By the way, i am becoming increasingly high-tech nowadays wor. If you bother to scroll down, there is a web counter! amazing right..you must understand my html skills are horrendous (like primary 1 standard) and putting a web counter is really one big challenge k. Actually, i cheat ones. I go to people's blog and click on their web counter then put on mine..haha!However, i still din manage to put a tagbox cause it keeps appearing at undesirable positions like bottom left hand corner of the blog.. who in the right mind will put a tag box there.. so forget it. Anyway, i hope my web counter can reach like 1000 in 5 days. haha.. if not i have to keep visiting my own blog to reach that target.

I bored. I think i am going swimming in my sister's house later. I havent seen her new house yet but the facilities can be used. It's still partially under construction and i hope the swimming pool wont be filled with sand and cement. Haha..see i am enjoying myself while my schoolmates are suffering in school. If i am not wrong they are having B's lessons.. Actually u can avoid her from calling you by looking down and sitting at some inconspicuous place. She quite lazy so she wont bother to look around and call.. she will just see who's in front of her.

I just read one very sophisticated blog just now.His writing is marvellous. so coherent and in depth. Look at mine, just look at mine.Superficial.Irrelevant. Full of rubbish. Waha. but i like.

From now to 3pm i must be wary of all phone calls. I must sound sick each time i pick up. You never know, it may be dr.c and his surprises.. haha.am i over exaggerating. does he care so much about absentees like me. Whatever.. its 12 and i haven done much except writing this entry. I hope i dont grow mouldy at the end of the day. I must be constructive.

I am accident prone.

posted by BenJ at Tuesday, April 12, 2005 1 kaLipoks

4/11/2005

a tempO 16

today is the day of a tempo number 16 which is the last performance we are going to have with our j2 seniors. Quite sad cause i think i will miss them a lot when they leave [except some lah]. I will miss our thirds seniors, namely tze hui and novella and not to forget,xinyi and huiyun the most. Tze hui has been my senior for like 5 years already and she's really really funny. I enjoy watching her act retarted or some jelly toy. HAha.. funny woman. She made times spent with her very enjoyable. Novella is her good buddy and both of them make a good match. thirds will be much quieter after they leave. sigh. but that's just part and parcel of life and i cant really do much..

Came to school in the morning without any mood to study and listen or whatever. So during tutorials i merely watch liching write her cards. Mr Wong tired to make the lecture interesting by performing some NKF charity stunt. Charlotte kept imitating the show host and even sang the nkf song can. Funny sia.
After which i had physics prac which was rather easy.initially, i din clamp the metre rule until i realise the sudden disappearance of retort stands. Hey, but at least i was alert can.. and it is officially allowed.

Report at RI band room at 1215, waited awhile until the bus came and then we boarded it to esplanade! Glen and i gave up our seats for 2 girls.( re-read this sentence 10 times) quite unlike me but it was done in attempt to accumulate some good karma. haha..have been critisizing people too often nowadays.

At that place, we rehearsed our pieces and blah blah..
After dinner i gave out my present which i painstakingly made for 5 whole hours yesterday. I wrecked my brains to try and think of something which i can make in bulk and not expensive as well. So being the very brilliant child, i used flour to make mushrooms with many colours. I personally think it is very nice but some people say ugly. haha.. cant help it. But i put in a lot of effort. I made 31 presents k and only received like 50% the number of presents.
Concert was good and the hall was almost filled.
Chuanyuan came with his friend and i am very grateful for that. Thanks for helping me sell the tickets and thanks for that ms field muffin. it was yummy. Thanks to sara and shengqi for buying that box of chocolate of me.. thanks yah.. and thanks to TESS , cindy and shu heng for writing me that note and coming to watch despite having band before that.. hope we still keep in touch yah..

Tze hui had a new hairstyle today. Dont want to comment on it, later accumulate bad karma. haha.. I forgot to bring my amazing camera today! ARh. Its amazing cause it wont die out like xinyi's despite charging for one whole night and it can store 25 times the no. of photos that huiyun's cam can store... Wasted.

I just ate one yam mochi and peking duck. I realise ginza plaza also sell mochi. and the mochi is even bigger , nicely wrapped in a box. So i dont have to go junction 8 to buy mochi anymore.. But i wonder why they dont sell green tea mochi..that's my favourite flavour. If there is, please inform me k, i must not miss out on good food. haha..
By the way, i am not going to school tmr. I am tired after one whole day of a tempo-ing. Furthermore, tmr got PE and 1.5 hours of GP. How to go to school like tt. how u tell me.
Today's entry is a bit the boring right. cause i'm tired and all my humour cells are sleeping.

posted by BenJ at Monday, April 11, 2005 2 kaLipoks

4/10/2005

ridiculous

My entries are getting more and more ridiculous.

Anyway, half of my weekend's gone and i'm left with today. Haven done anything yesterday cause band took up like 3/4 of the day and when i got home i went for tuition and then brought my granny to the clinic.
After band, i went to buy xxl chicken and jollibean again and snacked on the long bus journey home. At least i am keeping myself entertained during the ride. TV mobile made my ride even more enjoyable by screening Miss singapore universe. Haha..the programme was interesting because most of the contestants were ultra pathetic.some had buck tooth some look like some hawker centre aunty. i can still remember one of them called chew lian. I dont know how they got in in the first place. But i must give credit to a few of them who were really quite good. As such, they won all the prizes, leaving the rest empty handed( they deserve it). I think the host Nadia dont know what is the prettiest, they should just send her there.

Nothing much happened yesterday. Today is Sunday. Dont intend to do much since i dont need to take bio test tmr. Tomorrow is A tempo. My first esplanade performance. I hope everything will turn out well. I am still pondering over what should i buy for band people. Perhaps i will go out today to check out. My blazer is a bit different from the rest cause i have 3 buttons instead of 2 but lenette said it was fine. After much preparation a tempo is here and it will be over very soon. The time of stage will pass very quickly and then the next even will be syf. Think they will be conducting some kind of audition..sigh. i hate that. Better practise harder..
I will be watching RV band syf this friday! i hope they will do well too... i believe they will.

A moment ago, i was trying out one of the pirated CDs i bought and i was really irritated when the CD they gave cant work. It was handwritten so perhaps i read one of the letters wrongly. But i tried every letter and it still did not work.. Waste my time and money. I might as well take the money to buy the tamagochi.
Hope the other 2 CDs dont spoil. I din try cause i cant take too many blows in one shot.

Lately, i have been having several weird dreams. For example 2 nights ago, i dreamt that my campbell bio textbook fell apart. I was reading through the book when the pages came out one by one and i felt horrid cause the book cost 54 dollars.
A night ago, i dreamt that my sister's friend who recently got married with a child, divorced. Oh my, how can i dream of this kind of things.. In fact, i dont even know them and yet i can dream of such things..
Last night was the worst of all. I woke up crying, serious. I dreamt that my grandmother passed away in my house. She was lying on the table and my mother said her heart stopped beating. I did not believe and i attempted to call her and to my astonishment, she really woke up but her head dropped on the table after awhile. Then i went to my mother's room and i saw my grandmother standing behind the bed, looking extremely pale. My grandfather who was dead, was there too. In fact,all my ancestors were sitting around and i was talking to my grandfather.
Then i woke up. it was 8.30am.
Talking about my grandfather, i really miss him. he left me since i was in kindergarden i think. I liked him a lot cause he used to bring me down to sit on the machine, you know those that you insert 20 cents and they will move with some music. Yah.. i think i wasted a lot of his money sitting on that. But it was very fun to me last time. Now, i can hardly fit into the machine. He would also bring my sister and i to eat fish and chips as super every night. But he left so soon i could not even say a thank you to him. Sometimes, i really wonder why good people always die so early while the evil people get to live so long.

posted by BenJ at Sunday, April 10, 2005 2 kaLipoks

4/08/2005

10pm

That is the time i got home today. It has been a long day although lessons end quite early, about 1pm.
First lesson of the day was PE. The new indian teacher was very nice and for the first time we had games within our class. That's great cause it boosts class spirit . It was a good game of handball, although we lost quite miserably. But it's the process that is really fun.
Next, we had math and chem tutorials and both teachers were so slow that we did not touch the new tutorials, that's a good thing since i am always not up to date with my tutorials. PW was rather boring when ms poh brief us on what to expect in the weeks to come and it sounds horribly mundane cause we need to write long essays of several hundred words and i really detest writing. I dont have a flair for it and i reckon i will not do a good job out of it. I prefer the oral presentation part when i can just use my mouth. Groupings will be out sometime in the end of this month and i am praying real hard that mr lulu will not be in my group. That will be the greatest thing on earth cause i can sense something terrible will happen if he were to be in my group. Please please..hope dr. c will not put us together.

After school i went on a date with tze hui to sakae sushi.We arrived there at 2.30 and decided not to take the buffet since we were not that hungry and furthermore we had to wait until 3. Novella joined us after she went to bandworld. Tze was terrible. As she was going to be baptised in the following week, she decided to fast to the extend that she can only eat bread. As such, i was like eating all by myself while she watched me, drinking 10 cups of green tea. The only thing she ordered was a mango ice-cream, deceiving herself that it only contained frozen water. As novella came around 3.15, she was eligible to take the buffet and tze and i were contemplating how to put her in the next table and transport sushi to us via the sushi belt so that her buffet would be worth it. But novella wasnt that hungry too and merely ordered some maki.
Tze acted like some retarted kid throughout the whole journey. I must say she has a flair for doing so. Then we accompanied her to buy a loaf of gardinier bread. Oh yah, tze actually cut her hair in jean yip. Surprising. Hahah..no offence tze but i think you are used to it.

Left suntec and took train back to school. Then band started as usual at 530. Adriel was really funny. Firstly, he played extra note. Secondly,he din come in at dont know what part. Thirdly, he fell into the depression. problematic child. His thud wasnt as loud as tze's though. But adriel is a nice person, so i shall not be so bad to him.

After band, lingzi wanted to go see Slyvester at j8. On a serious note, i dont like him. That sicko. But since i was going to j8 i might as well just go and see(kpo). Glen lingzi and i searched for the place and by the time we arrived, the stage lights shut off and there were only a few people left. Of which several are aunties. Glen even talked to the auntie..haha.. so sociable sia. But as i was quite disgusted by aunties idolising ah beng, i decided to stay one corner quietly. However, if u think we left empty handed, we did not. Lingzi and Glen took photo with sly's family..awww..so heart warming sia..haha.. I took the photo for them with my phone and mms it to lingzi. She is quite a die hard fan cause she wanted to pay me to mms the photo to her..but then i just mms to her free lah.. so weird collecting the 50 cents right.

Met sharon and james along the way and we went for dinner. I ate oyster mee swa and XXL chicken. I bought mochi too! finally. Then i borrowed 10 bucks from the very-rich james who generously took out 10 bucks without hesitation, to take a taxi home..
And poof! here am i.

My mother just came back from cruise with a big bunch of dancing friends. Hearing her narration of events there, i can see she had enjoyed herself thoroughly. That's great. Hopefully everyday of her life can be that happy. Unfortunately, there will always be problems cropping up for her to settle...sigh.
Honestly, I dont mind giving all my happiness to my mother if i can because she has done alot for me and i hope that she can be happy too...at least her blood pressure will not shoot up... God bless.

posted by BenJ at Friday, April 08, 2005 4 kaLipoks

4/07/2005

Row row row ur boat..

Row row row your boat,
Gently down the steam,
Merrily merrily merrily merrily,
Life is but a dream.

Is life really a dream?
Is reality really made up of unreality.
Weird.

posted by BenJ at Thursday, April 07, 2005 0 kaLipoks

i'm a goofy blogger.

I am begining to like blogging. I feel as though i am unleashing all my angst inside, not that i have alot. Haha..but it just feels good.
Today is a long day for me. Started the day with a long speech by mr p which i kept dozzing off cause i slept a little late last night.
During GP lesson, we did some very boring thing which is to summarise some very cheem essay. Gail har and lenette was doing everything, so i just sat there and watch, attempting to give ideas now and then. B wore something that was not so low cut and instead of the usual black pants, she wore a skirt. This makes me wonder if she read my blog.. haha..if she did i would be dead can. But she cannot really do much except to fail me in every assignment ( no point cause i naturally already fail). Haha. This is called freedom of speech can. During the discussion, jie xuan, jared and i kept giving her funny names like B jie. butcher butler,etc. Jiexuan said B jie sounds like some porn star..wahah..and jared added that she was just a B-grade actress..HAHAHAHA! really funny.
During maths, our new teacher finally came. I believe she will be a very good singer judging from the size of her diaphragm. As in, she has a strong diaphragm. We kept making fun of people's names when she tried to pronounce them. Like JaRd. and the best was auntie may's.

Chem prac was a usual and spa is coming in 2 weeks. So fast sia. I think my techniques are improving k..after so many complains. If carrot dont talk to me, everything is still fine. Everytime he talk to me something will go wrong can, like burning the test tube holder and today the solution got sucked into the pipette filler...

My mother's still not back and the part time maid is really slacking. she stop work at like 7 and watch TV, read newspaper, sleep at 930. And just now say go donwstairs to buy something, until now still not back. She better not run away. or else i really dont know what to do. should i report to police or what..

Oh yah, can we have a proper class lunch. can can? our class lunch is always so unsuccessful despite booking 2 entires benches. Everytime say class lunch then in the end always the same few people present.. where are the rest?! WHERE?! Better dont let me track them down. later i dispatch shao shuang to catch them back. The best lunch is always after PE when everyone else has no where to go.. Tmr got PE, and it's basketball. I hope i can play better tmr.

posted by BenJ at Thursday, April 07, 2005 0 kaLipoks

4/06/2005

artificial.

I just got back from band. Today has been a long day and i was really tired after sectionals. Thirds went to eat again. I had to settle my dinner myself cause my mother went cruising...
On the way to j8, a car, SBF 7998T, zoomed past us, splashing muddy rain water on glen, yuhning and i. Horrid.Better dont let me see him on the road next time..

By the way my previous post was not written under normal mental conditions. please understand, i am not like tt usually.

Sigh.. i'm kind of missing my secondary school friends. They're really nice,loyal people. They are really sincere and kind especially people from 4C. Eversince i came to rj, i think i became more hypocritical.
It's like, i dont like that person but i still smile and pretend to be good friends.. i know many of you are guilty of that. i know it. And i promise to change. or rather be my old self.
i feel quite bad about it..it's just artificial.i must try not to gossip behind people's back.
Likewise, if you dont like me, can you just tell me...tell me what's wrong with me please cause i'm open minded. just say, like butler. I will at most dedicate one entry to you, just jokingg. i wont.
Seriously, if you are unhappy about me or what i do, just say.

I feel so small. All around me are high flyers with so many talented people around me.. me leh? a small fry. Somehow, i feel i wont shine but what can i do. All i know is to talk rubbish and do nothing constructive.. Hence, i must announce my new resolution, which is to be a better,nicer, quieter(as in talk less rubbish) and likeable person.. haha.. i will try my best to achieve it k.

Oh, i din get through the council interview. expected though. i knew it since i stepped out of the room. but nevermind, cause i will have much more free time then. Good luck to lenette, our only candidate from 3L.. waha..

Auntie May and the rest who read my blog, what do you think about it?

posted by BenJ at Wednesday, April 06, 2005 3 kaLipoks

4/04/2005

15 min of laughter

I think i laugh more than that everyday.

After school, i helped shao shuang count the bio tys money. Carrot and Cartoon were there too. It was really funny. Shao shuang really has a great sense of humour if you havent realise. She said lots of funny things that made me laugh my head off. She's showing some resemblance to tessie. I cant write what happened here cause it wont be funny anymore.
What made me worried was when she said that according to some science journal she read,the optimal laughing time per day is 15 min. 15 min!! or else you will die early... Oh my goodness, how can i laugh just 15 min a day.. I always thought we should laugh as much as we can to reduce stress hormones until shaoshuang told me about this.. I hope she mis interprete the journal or something or else i have to cut down my laughing time.

I just came home from sectionals. I dont really like sectionals, partly because its rather boring but the main reason is the irritating timing that sectionals is arranged. It's like 5pm in the evening when everyone else get off from work and ends at 7 when the roads are jammed and the mrts are so crowded. But then again, A tempo is coming and i really need to practise..
I din go for xinyi's birthday dinner with the section today cause it was quite late and i dont want to spend anymore money. soory xinyi anyway. Happy birthday

Talking about school work, i still have a few more to go like the carbo tutorial and some essay qns left over from cell bio. Oh yah, i just bought the campbell book and it's very very heavy cause it is extremely thick. (which means i have a lot to study!) I dont think i am doing anything today since its quite late now and i need my sleep cause i cant wake up. Today was horrible cause my sleeping mode lasted all the way until 11 and i could not listen properly. monday blues i guess. Stupid mondays. Perhaps i should just browse through the campbell CD and treat it like some revision. And tmr i'm going for my root canal surgery part II to remove the chemical inside. To dr. chan, dont worry, i din arrange my appt before lesson ends.

I bought 3 pirated CDs yesterday.
I am exposed ti 50 hours of mass media a week. What kind of life am i leading?

posted by BenJ at Monday, April 04, 2005 1 kaLipoks

4/03/2005

i hear the wedding bells

Yup, finally it's my sister's wedding. After much preparation, the day finally came. It was a lunch wedding, not a bufftet, and my mother was rather unhappy about it for a very long time because she preferred a dinner but my sis insisted on dinner. Not only that, my mother and sister also argued about the sitting plans..and all the superstitious beliefs. Nonetheless, the wedding was good and everything turned out fine.
Early in the morning 645 the hair stylist came to do my sis hair and put on the gown, waited for the photographer and relatives. The other elder sis of mine also put on her bridesmaid gown which she complained many times about how ugly it was. haha.. The groom arrived late and i went down to open his car door for him. But before that i must kick his car door first, which is suppose to warn him not to bully my sister.
Then he collected a 19kg suckling pig and went up to my house. After some haggling, my bridesmaid sister let him in and then the tea ceremony began. All my relatives had a chance to drink some red dates tea. By the way i way i had to offer tea to them too.
My mother changed into her purple gown and the beautician helped her touch up. Then we proceeded to conrad hotel. We were late though.
The flower girl and the ring bearer were so cute. The entire march out was nice i thought.
During the singing of the certificate of marriage, i played pachebel cannon with my grade 2 standard. Unfortunately, i was cut off after the first page cause they signed to quickly. That's really too much can, i practise so hard then they cut me off..!!!
Blah blah..as usual and the food was good. Then it ended at around 3 and here am i. tired.

I've been spending too much money these days cause i'm always going out to eat. And whenever i see good food around i cant resist but to buy. I enjoy eating nice food.. and nice food's expensive. The worst thing is i realise junction 8 basement got a lot of nice food which implies that i am going to spend a lot of money there. The biggest problem is that i am not like earning big money and i cant afford such lifestyle. haha. i teach tuition until so difficult only 100 dollars can. sit taxi 10 times already gone.

Anyway, happy birthday to you min, hoRng sEng and xinyi. May everyday of your life be filled with happiness. though practically it's not possible. But its the thought that counts.

posted by BenJ at Sunday, April 03, 2005 2 kaLipoks