3/30/2006

i'm dissolving...

Somehow i'm feeling non-existent these days. I feel i'm transparent. I can easily blend into the background anywhere, like a wall paper and this really sucks. Hellloooo... I'm floating around school, oblivious to everything's that's happening. And i dont feel exactly alive, maybe one day when i walk down the canteen i'll burst into carbon dioxide molecules and vanish.

Sigh, these few days are seriously not my days. Really apologize for this whole series of depressing entries.

Just when i thought things seem bad enough already, i experienced another minimum point and i can only say i'm extremely disappointed with myself.

I woke up with a silly red swollen left eye this morning cause i rubbed my eyes too much while sleeping and when i woke up my left eye could hardly open. That sucked a little, especially early in the morning. That's not the main story, it's just the prelude. Bad omen bad omen.

So throughout the day i wasnt feeling comfortable. But somehow i was also oblivious to things around, so everything just kept going by and i just sat and watched things move. And i realise i've quietened down since after the commontest break, except for teasing louis sometimes. I think i've gained more IQ over the week, so my EQ dropped some level. Hahah! You know i always think that a person can only have a certain level of IQ + EQ. So if you're really smart, like for example, maybe you're a GEP (just jokin!), then you'll most likely be a werido and have a low level of EQ and so have few friends, or maybe you have, but no true friends to speak of. You dont believe me, you look at autistic kids who shut themselves up in their own world, some of them are extremely talented, like say, in music.

Anyway as i was saying friendships seems really superficial i feel, especially in rj. It's really difficult to find really nice, sincere friends whom you can depend on when you're in need. Everyone around me seems to be living in a symbiotic relationship whereby friendships are based on what each party stands to benefit. Now even friendships exist politics. Actually maybe i should be a nicer person!

But the thing about being nice is, you are always at the losing end, really! When you're nice, you'll be made use, that's a fact.

..... What a sad life you have!

No lah, you know when you're feeling low, all those kind of sad shit comes into your mind and i just kept typing typing without realising i sound zi bi.

Now i know all you kpo young minds must be asking why am i feeling so upset.

Actually, it's because i got an O for my chem. Ok you didnt get the O so you wont understand how i feel. It feels extremely disappointing and bitter.

This is the first time i'm scoring so lowwwwwww and i think a lot of people too. When i got back my mcq, realising i got a measly 4/15 i almost vomitted fresh blood. You see, if i scored 4 cause i spent 1 min filling everything C i wouldnt have felt this bad, but the thing i spent 45minutes thinking and i still got 4 ! HOW DOES THAT FEEL?

Ok, i dont want to dwell on it anymore but i think there's a reason for me to score such a pitiful mark. I need to be jailed. This mark equates to 2 days of studying gone down the drain. I WASTED 2 DAYS OF MY HOLIDAYS, 48 HOURS OF MY LIFE.

The worst thing was i still had the audacity to feel that the paper was ok. This is a secret, i only told myself that. OK OK AND OK AND I GOT WHAT SHIT. HUH WHAT SHIT. On one hand i feel extremely paiseh, on the other i feel extremely disappointed in myself. Cause as much as i think the paper is difficult, i dont think my O is justified cause the questions are really do-able wad...qi guai...

QI GUAI! WHY I STILL GET SUCH SHIT HEAD SCORE.

I really need a change in my working attitude. CT is a fire alarm for me to change. One by one, you all watch out , i'm going to top the level in the next chem test. Watch out for my big name ok, my aim is 92/100 A*. ANYONE WHO SCORES 92.5 I WILL HANG PIG HEAD (FRESH) ON YOUR HOUSE DOOR.

Ha. Just kiddin. I'm not that stupid ok, get 70 also A get 99 also A why push so hard to get 99!? Siao.

Hai, anyway, yah i'm really upset over this chem mark. And louis the idiot delibrately came over

"you got O also arh"

"yah"

"but my O higher than yours"

This is not a very proud thing to be publicising widely, but i think i'm quite perverted. I like to publicise all my louya mark like when i got 4 for MCQ i turn around to tell everyone. HAHAH! SIAO OR NOT. But if i happen to score decently, i prefer to keep quiet cause i really hate hao lian people.

It's werid. Sometimes when i have expectations for something, i end up disappointing myself and when i dont have any expectations i tend to do better then i thought i could. It's really weird and i think a lot of people felt this way too.

Next week, ill be receiving more of my papers, and i'm mentally prepared.

Ok, i'm going to write my will now... bye!

3/29/2006

Sigh.

I'm feeling low. When things seem to get better, something must go wrong. I feel like i'm stuck in a dead end and i cant do anything to help myself. This makes me feel really uncertain and i'm just shutting myself up.

By the way, it's nothing to do with yesterday's entry and yesterday's entry was done for fun, you think i care so much about my hair... it's only but a bale of hay..haha!

3/25/2006

TurnMachine turns One!

This entry wasnt suppose to be this late! turnMachine turns one on 25th March, not 26th, the day which you're probably reading now. I was typing halfway until i'm suppose to go for dinner and i didn't expect myself to reach home this late! Haha Anyway, here goes..

Everybodaaaay! Today, turnMachine's One year Old !

This blog celebrate its One year old birthday with a grand total of 224 posts, no, 225 including this one!

Haha I know it's a bit bo liao to celebrate birthday for erm, a blog, but i like my blog so much, i decided to celebrate. But i mean, maintaining a blog for 365 days is really not an easy thing ok and i did it! So, this calls for a celebration.

Hmm, dont ask me why i called named my blog turnMachine, cause i've almost no idea either. All i knew was i wanted to create a blog and after putting in much thought i came up with turnMachine cause my favourite thing to do when i was young is to turn machine. Erm, wait, do you know what's a turnmachine?

These are turnmachines, the cheena type. I prefer the japanese type.

Actually being the slightly zi lian person, i wanted to use my name, but you know, benjamin is how common nowadays. Almost 3 in 20 males are named benjamin, if not ben. Then i tried the most cliche thing of spelling my name backwards, like ookellehcim.diaryland.com.. That was tough right! So nimajneb.blogspot.com was of course immediately rejected.

That's the best i could answer to why is my blog called turnMachine. And do you know, the icons at my sidebar are some of my turnmachine items!

Thanks for reading until this far already. It's a little bit of history and it's boring but i still must say. Oh and i must thank everyone who have been supporting this insignicant corner of the blogosphere! (That's actually one major reason for me to keep bloggging and posssting...really!)And it feels good to have people saying "interesting blog!" and "you've a nice blog!" =] On the other hand, it's quite uncomfortable sometimes to blog 'yourself' and let people, including many people i dont know to judge you by your blog. (I think my blogging personality is different from the real person i am, so dont get the wrong idea! )

In real life, i'm super nice.

Anyway i think my blog is really happening and so far my blogging journey has been rather exciting. You see, first got some guai tai person R. who left a whole series of weird comments since the Library Incident (i deleted that post alr). Then came gua tai 2, Mr K, who came to hack my blog! WAH. At the point in time i really didnt expect anyone to hack my blog that's why i didnt feel the need to change my chaojiwudi easy password. Many small happenings in between but, nevermind, it's all nice and fine now.

Shiit, all these things sound super cheesy! But dont blame me cause i'm feeling extremely cheesy after singing all the emo chinese songs just now.. haha! I was at KTV with my family just now, very cheap! Only 10 bucks an hour at Chevrons but it's quite rowdy outside with all the smoking going on. Not my type of place, kbox is still a more pleasant place to sing.

KBOX CAN YOU PLEASE GIVE ME VIP MEMBERSHIP, i'm always promoting FREE! I deserve a 50% percent discount everytime plus i always bring all my friends there..see how supportive am i!

Hmm, i think if i continue with my speech all of you are going to be bored to death and not come here anymore, so i shall stop here.

And Happy birdday turnMachine!

Oh, last but not least, to reward you for reading this entire cheesy piece of article, here's a picture of Pepsi for you!

WAH I HATE MOSQUITOES WHO BITE PEOPLE'S SOLES. THE BITES ARE EXTREMELY ITCHY!

3/24/2006

Tired man!

Whooop! I went out the entire day! And i'm very tired now, so i'll keep it short but will still post some pictures. Haha! How can an entry be complete without pictures right?

I set off early today for kbox at marina square! By the way marina square is a huge, spacious shopping arcade now. I heard it used to be very run down but i cant remember anything. If you havent been there, i reccomend you to go, BenJ gives 4 out of 5 Stars for its wide range of entertainment facilities, but minus one star cause everything's expensive..

Then after dinner, i still made it down for tuition today despite feeling extremely exhausted after a heavy meal at kenny roger's and walking the entire day in my imitation converse shoe. hahaha! One thing about imitation shoes is that they are cheap and look good but you have to compromise on the comfort of your feet and in the long run it's not good for the legs. So i only wear them for short days...By the way, i have real zheng zhong shoes, in case you're thinking i only patronise cheapo goods.

But being Energizer, the never say die battery, i managed to sit through 2 hrs of tuition by a luo suo ah pek.

Then i came home and realised my sister bought me a green guitar. It's smaller than the normal guitar i think... but thing is... i cant play guitar for nuts and how am i suppose to play with it! All i know is to stum the guitar anyhow but Pepsi keeps barking whenever i does that. I think he's trying to sing along! Pepsi is really cute right!

Alrighty, i'm tired and i need sleep. So i shall just post up the pictures now. And i really have to say i look extremely weird in the photos, and i think it's cause i was sleep deprived yesterday, remember i drank coffee at mac cafe at 11pm...

Kbox !

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Lucy, no i mean, lynette and HK Gangster district manager.

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Wah, i love the plasma screen man. They gave us a big room with 3 TVS! One being this plasma tv although there were only 3 people.. Reallllly nice!

OUTSIDE KBOX LOITERING

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This is your HK district manager again, holding onto a obasan handbag this time, trying to commit social suicide and succeeded.

DINNER

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High class dining.

Ok, that's all for today's picture. I have a few more though but they're extremely guaitai looking ( i mean myself), no lah, actually i'm just lazy to post. Posting pictures takes a lot of effort ok..

Ok, one last one.

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My green guitar. GG.

Relieved

Woohoo! Finally finally, commontest has ended! Feels really good to be able to sit in front of the computer without feeling guilty at all.. And it's great to be able to break out of that vicious cycle of study, sleep, eat,study, test...

No more books, no more notes, no more files and no more test for the time being. I've already cleared my table and kept all my notes, i'm going to forget all about school work for this entire weekend at least. Wah, i feel as if i've just removed a heavy load off my chest, and it really feels good, not joking!

It's been some time since i can properly come online, do the usual stuff and msn-ing and now i'm very high. YOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOO ANYONE THERE!!!! Life's back to normal again! I CAN SEE THE STARS NOW!! YOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

I'm trying to spread the excitement, can you feel it? I dont know why, but this commontest ONE seems to be very tedious and draining, do you feel the same too? Maybe cause we've more difficult things to understand and maybe a bit too little time. But it's good in a way, it builds up the momentum for this year. And now that it's over, i'm extremely thankful.

So now, i have 3 FREE DAYS! I'm going to enjoy my entire 3 days to the MAX, by, for example, not sleeping, see now, it's 2.20am and i'm still here blogging shows how i'm maximising my time. Talking about sleeping late, i'm really amazed by how people can sleep at 5.30am to study and wake up at 7.30am! HOLY COW! (in high pitched ang moh slang) 2 hours of sleep to last the entire thing! That's prolly the last thing i can do...

And fortunately, i dont have CCA this weekend, so that calls for another celebration. I feel a lil sorry for those who still have to turn up in school for training.. just remember to enjoy your training so your time will pass faster and easier...

Today after commontest, i went home straight away and sleep.

Of course not, I where got so unhappening, like you meh! Just joking, but then after CT go home and sleep is wrong in my book of principles.

As usual, we anyhow organise and ended up the same few people going out again! HAHA! Really cant depend on my class for such things. 3L!! Can we just go out ALTOGETHER FOR ONCE?!

And today we broke record by spending only a miraculous 3s to decide where to go and where to eat!

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So we landed up in MARCHE!

Ok, marche is a place of potatoes. Rosti (spelt like that?) , mash potato, blah blah, everything is potato! And the things are not cheap anyway. We spent 80 over bucks eating POTATOES , can you believe it! Ok, the seafood platter is not potato, but still, the majority of our food is potato.

No matter what, post-commontest is still worthy of celebration =]

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Adriel was acting busy behind, spoiling the festive mood, so i had to crop out his face.

Afterwhich we made our way to esplanade roof top, the chao romantic place where we caught a couple kiss for about 5 minutes. This makes me wonder how can people kiss so long, in public. You mean they dont need to breathe meh, i mean, isnt it very difficult to breathe when you kiss so long.. hahaha!.. Call me ignorant, but i really dont know.

But that's not the point. We slacked over at the roof top, enjoyed the breezy feel and serenity for almost an hour before a tmd cockroach ran across our legs. HHAHAHA!! Come to think of it, it's really funny! Wad a spoiler right, the darn cockroach. Imagine you are about to kiss your partner and a cockroach run across your leg..

So so, that's about it before we went over to marina square to have MAC CAFE until they closed shop. We practically comed the whole city hall area today and i had a great time. Arrh, it's been a long long time since i last laughed so hard.

I'm really blessed to have such funny friends around. You should've looked at how glen used $2.50 worth of loose change to purchase large fries and found out that he was 10 cents short after the cashier painstakingly counted the coins...

Alrighty, that's all for now ok, it's almost 3am already and i've kbox session tmr! Look at how much i'm enjoying myself! Go out go out of your house now and play!

It's the only time i go out and play without feeling guilty, cause i did work hard for commontest and it's time for a much deserved break! WOOHOOO!

3/22/2006

1 more to gO!!

Yay, see i'm still faithfully blogging despite all the commontest fever.

I'm good, right. Anyway, i've been down with running nose these few days and my nose is dripping dripping and dripping non-stop. The worst was yesterday during maths when half of my table was covered with tissue and i looked as though i cried cause of the paper! OH MAN how loser was that! I think people who cry over a paper is really, really silly.

Yesterday, i can say, was one of the most loser day in school. And as a result i kept skipping questions and i can forsee that i'm going to score my worst maths result so far.

OKOK STOP IT.

Happy thing is, i've only ONE MORE TO GO!!!! Yay. I mean YAY!

Finally finally i can chuck my books aside for a few days. Hahah, although it's only a FEW DAYS I AM STILL VERY CONTENTED. And i can go out formally.

Tell you the truth, i havent went out properly since the start of march holidays. I was practically at home throughout the holidays. So, to reward myself for being such a closet kid, i bought MINI MAGNUMS! Mini magnum isnt that mini actually, mini conetto is really mini.

Alright, after CHEM TMR, i will be back! OK! SeE YA.

3/20/2006

No moooood

I shouldnt be here now. I shouldnt be even blogging but i really cannot take it anymore. I cant concentrate and i cant study for tomorrow! WHat's WRONG?!

I think it's cause of Bio today. I dont like to comment on test papers but today's bio is really a waste of my time and effort. Study already everything FORGET CAN. I dont know why i keep forgetting my facts, maybe it's cause i didnt study thoroughly enough.

AND CAN THEY JUST STOP ASKING PEOPLE TO DRAW GENETIC DIAGRAMS. STOP IT STOP ITTTTTT. I CANT DRAW! And i think it's extremely stupid to draw something you already know. You know you will produce 81 purple flowers then SO BE IT why make your life difficult by trying to draw up some funny diagrams. And i think one shouldnt even predict what colour flower offspring cause it'll be more exciting not knowing anything and when the flower blooms you get a surprise! ISNT THAT NICER?

ARH. You wont know what i'm talking about. I'm j ust trying to vent all my pent-up feelings about the bio paper. And now i'm worrying for my maths and i dont feel like doing anything about it, SO HOW. If i get 4 Ds for my commontest i'm going vomit fresh blood ...

I love commontest, i'm lovin' it.

3/17/2006

But..but..i dont feel stressed!

There's something wrong with my biological system.

I've been experiencing all the symptoms of stress lately but, seriously, i dont feel stressed at all.. My hair is falling off, i'm sick and i cant sleep soundly at night. My nose is giving me problems again and sometimes i hope that i can pluck it off and just survive on 2 holes. No no, i take back what i said, that'll be extremely gross.

I think stress is working unconsciously. Does anyone know what can i do? Ok, the problem is simple if you experience all these symptoms cause you're really feeling stressed, but i dont feel anything, so how can i stop the stress. How? If i dont cure myself, i'm going to turn into a bald zombie.

Hmm, i have nothing much to blog about as you know, muggerlife can never be exciting. Unlike louis, who is currently travelling around Asia, dont know do what and almost got put into prison. Hanky panky sia.

I'm only halfway through my mugging journey and as always, behind schedule. This time i actually very worried for maths cause being such a retarded kid, esp with my retarded hair now, i'm not those who can grasp concepts and formula quickly and not completing tutorials and lack of practice is definitely going to put me into a bad place. I know you're advicing me to go do some questions but thing is, bio is in 2 days time and i havent started. Bio is really a test of how spongey my brain is, how absorbent is it to information and how much information can i squeeze out on the spot...

That's BenJ's Mugging Journey at a glance. How's it? How's yours?

Today i happened to browse through TV and i caught this programme by Oprah called The American Debt. It's pretty interesting cause it helps people in debt to get out of debt through The Debt Diet or smthn. Really coool cause they engaged money experts to help and i feel like participating, too bad it's the AMERICAN debt. Maybe if i scrimp and save everyday, i can save one hundred thousand dollars?

I cant wait for commontest to be OVER!! And A levels to be GONE! YAY.

3/16/2006

Time out!

I'm balding. My hair is falling off like nobody's business.. arhh It's especially bad when i study cause i tend to scratch my head and then i see strands of hair landing on my notes! And when i wash my hair, it falls off too! I hope this is only temporary, having a bald spot on the head is how uncool.

Now it feels so quiet online. Everyone's either away or busy on msn and blogs are rarely updated...I think everyone's studying very hard. I'm waiting for lunch now, so i might as well just blog alittle.

But somehow i feel i've lost the sense of urgency. Maybe it's because i took so many tests and exams that this one feels like just another one, you know the sort of numb feeling. I study for half an hour and walk around for 2 hours, if this goes on, i'm never going to get anything done.

I hope everything passes quickly. Actually it is passing very quickly. I woke up this morning and realised it's already thursday! 3 more days and school's reopening AGAIN! And come to think of it, this will be the last year of school in school uniform and marikita-ing. YES! No more waking up early in the morning and stuffing bread, no need for my mom to fetch me to school, no more no more any dreadful thing!

I'm lazy, hungry, smelly, ugly... HELP.

3/14/2006

I'm perspiring even as i blog

The weather's awfully fervid. And the best thing to have is none other than a Green tea ice cream from Haigen Daz.

It's just.. heavenly...

3/13/2006

Let's play a game!

HAHAHHA!! I was talking to Wee wee just now and she told me she TV got burnt out! And she said she saw smoke evolving from the TV and filled her entire room! HAHAH!! HOW FUNNY IS THAT! First time in my life in this era i hear of TV burning out!

Okok, that's not that main point. To help people in muggerland destress, let's play a game! It's called GUESS WHO.

Yah, the game is really simple and i played it with my friend Lingzi that day after Play and it cracked me up totally at midnight when we were travelling towards Swensens.

Oh, before that let me introduce you to my friend, Lingzi.

Her eyes are closed, due to flash. I think it takes experience to take photos with flash with your eyes open. Last time i couldnt open my eyes for nuts, but now, i can! Hahaha! So lingzi, practice!

So the games goes like this. I'll give you a close-up of somebody's face and you're suppose to guess who! The game gets increasingly easier as we move on cause i will zoom out and out until you get to see the entire face at the end.

So that day i was playing this game with Lingzi on my superpowerful Orlando.

She was HILARIOUS I TELL YOU. I laughed until my stomach shifted position a few times.

STAGE 3

Lingzi : Is that richard?
Me: nope.
Lingzi: Chrissie?
Me: Erm, no, ok next stage.

STAGE 2

Lingzi: ....

STAGE 1

OK THIS IS THE ULTIMATE PICTURE. For any normal, intellectually able reader, you should see the resemblance of this pic with the very first picture, aka lingzi picture.

But Lingzi, out of the most unexpected things, asked the ultimate question.

" DO I KNOW HIM?"

My goodnessss! SHE ACTUALLY CANNOT EVEN RECOGNISE HER OWN PICTURE!! HAHAHHAHA!! It's seriously seriously funny!! Dont you think! And she thought the person was a man. Hahah i think my friends are all really funny!

So which level did you guess right?

I bet anyone is better than lingzi herself.

3/11/2006

Play 06 !

Ok, i've finally done with my Play 06 pictures. Finally, because i took 5 hours to do up all the pictures! I know i should be studying, but saving a life time of memories is actually quite a worthwhile thing to do. You know I actually took 120 photos!

Play 06 is a RJCSB concert if you still dont know. It's more of a support your friend concert cause if you want to hear better music, then come for A Tempo which will be in June.

So, actually Play was really fun, erm, but i'm not sure why. Concerts are always enjoyable although the preparation part always suck a little. But it was really tiring, considering it to be a 2 day event and i only get to reach home past midnight! And come to think of it, this is my second last concert before play and that's it! The end of my JC band career, maybe even forever!

Anyway, thanks to all those who bought tickets to watch. Both nights were sold out! And some even paid to sit on the steps, i think we're just, really good. Hahaha!

Now, it's time for the photoss! Woohoo!

Oh, before i post the proper pictures, here's a Toilet Scene for you in case you're wondering where did people disappear to half an hour before the concert.

I just realised there's someone urinating behind in this pic above..HAHAHA!!

Machiam family photo...haha!

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We had so much time after the first half, joy and i ended up taking photos instead of guarding the doors! haha!

Thanks hongshen milo and agnes for supporting and buying flowers! They're really great classmates cause i didnt even sell tickets to them and they came on their own and even bought flowers.. If only my class is more supportive, like other classes who came ALL together. Our class will only come if they give free tutorial answers. Sad case can.

Oh, jason and cindy, my RVCB friends came over too!

haha! this photo looks extremely funnny!

And on the way back, i took this funny photo on the mrt.

Wow, is that a lot of photos?

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Recently my sister send me a radio ad to listen. This ad is aired over in philippines for about 10 times a day and i thought it was some funny song or something.

So i opened the file to listen and suddenly i heard my sister's name in the radio ad. !! Haha! I didnt know she's actually quite happening in philippines sia.

Haha.. u want to listen? Click, here.

3/10/2006

Busy busy busy!

Er hem, i sincerely apologize for the intense drought this time! I know i know, you always see the same old entry about how i want to make my blog into a book, blah and then u scroll further down you see the same old entry of me scolding the hairstylist.

But i dont know why, these days seem to pass so quickly! Before i even realise it, it's friday tmr! Actually it's friday now. That's really really fast.

Anyway, with commontests around the corner and Play (RJCSB concert) today and tomorrow, i hardly have the time to update a decent entry! So i'm just posting this quick post so that you wont see the same ol thing again, see how nice i am. Where to find, huh?

Yesterday was a blog-worthy day actually, but by the time i came home, i was too exhausted to do anything but sleep. Anyway just for myself to note, yesterday was my very first visit to a facial spa! And i bought a few pieces of clothing and erm, i had Haigen daz green tea ice cream yesterday too. Heavenly!

By the way, i just came back from Play 1 and it's very enjoyable i thought. I took loads and loads of photos! I think taking photos is actually a very good social activity and it's veh fun too. I have no time to do a proper entry now, so stay tuned tomorrow ok? I promise i will upload all the nice photos!

For now, my mind is falling asleep... ZZzzzz

3/04/2006

No one ever visits this place!

I realise the number of foul words used in the previous entry is more than the entire blog's add up. Hahah! But who cares right, it's the 21st century! And no one ever visits this place, so i can type any thing here..haha!

But i was really, angry with the hairstylist. Imagine, someone cut your hair like that:

AND THEN CLAIM THAT YOU ASKED HER TO CUT LIKE THAT. How would you feel huh! For nothing i feel as though i took up a role in mediacorp acting retarded or something.

Ok, anyway, after the recut, it's not that bad anymore. It's just a bit short and disproportionate.

My blog is becoming one year old! Woohoo! I think my blogging style has changed quite a bit and i prefer the way i blog last time. Those were the times when i didnt know how to upload pictures at all! And those were the times when i blog solely for myself to read and maybe a few other closer friends.

Arh, i missed those times when i can blog so freeeeeeely cause no one will ever judge me cause only i read what! Now i'm quite sure teachers have come here before once. So must be extra cautious everytime i write..and i used to be able to write super duper crappy staff cause no one would call me stupid.

I better not write so much now if not i will have nothing left to write for Turnmachine's One Year Anniversary Entry.

Come to think of it, with all the tests and exams and the BIG As coming in my way this year, i doubt i will be able to sustain all these writings anymore. And i'm considering of shutting this place down, really, although i did mention a few times before. Ok, those people who detest this blog will be rubbing their hands gleefully now, but didnt i tell u to stop coming here if you dont like this place!

And i'm thinking of converting this blog into a BOOK for my keepsake. Coool! But i guess it will take a loong loong time before i find the time to do up the cover page, content page, editing blah blah. I'm becoming a publisher, writer, editor..everything. The book will be a good way to mark the end of my blogging days and when i'm old and retiring, i can whip out the book someday, wipe out the dust and read about what a crazy teenager i have been.

Maybe one day, the book might even sell! I'm going to patent this Blog-turn-book idea. So you dont try to copy k.

3/02/2006

when you dont care about anything anymore

Sometimes, life seems more perfect when you dont care about anything. When you dont care about how weird you look on a bad hair day, when you dont care about it when your friends ignore your messages and you dont care about what happens in the end.

I've just gotten back my internet connection after trying so hard until i finally called the administrator and all he did was to ask me off and on the modem. Wasted all my efforts to act smart and delete suspicious applications like msn, now i have to re install again.

A levels results were released yesterday and everyone did so well! So far i only knew of one person who got 3As! That's really really admirable. 60% of the cohort got 4As and i'm really really praying very hard that i fall into that 60% next year this day. And i realise the GP grade is extremely important cause it really distinguishes you from the crop. I hope i can get an A2? maybe B3 is more realistic.

Maybe i should really start to be more focused in my studies if i want to fall in the 60% cateogry. Afterall, 40% is not a small percentage. And i'm beginning to appreciate mdm bathy my GP teacher. She's extremely task orientated, like me. Haha! I like the way she drills the techniques and staff and no matter how uninteresting it might be, i'm still enjoying it. Yes, good attitude benJ, KEEP IT UP MAN! I mean, i would rather a boring but task orientated than a wacky slacky teacher right, at least i stand to benefit in the end.

I should really start to appreciate my teachers and stop badmouthing them cause i think they actually know. I'm very thankful to have very good teachers this year. Maybe except for one. Ha, if you've been following this blog for sometime you should know who. Hopeless case.

Appreciating teachers is one thing. Sucking up to them is totally another story. And i hereby, declare, I HATE SUCKERS.

Who are suckers? WHO?! Suckers are people who laugh at anything the teacher says, be it extremely NOT funny. Suckers are people who bootlick the teachers by for example, cleaning the whiteboard only in front of teachers,or in any other way. Suckers are people who erm also, compliment the teacher's dress even if it's a fashion suicide.

I mean, who doesnt want a nice pleasant testimonial at the end of the day? And you jolly well work hard for it by let's say, doing 1000 CIP hours and volunteer for all possible leadership postions or even set up your own CCA and be the president. NOT BY SUCKING UP. I personally find suckers irksome and the way i see they laugh pretentiously at something totally unfunny my hair stands, eyes rotate 360 degress, gets into spasm and start foaming. HAHA, ok i'm exaggerating. I just secretly cringe, that's all.

I just dont understand how fake can people get. Seriously, i find it extremely difficult to fake a laughter, fake a smile, maybe. And to actually fake laughterS is the ultimate chore. I cant do it and i dont want to do it. Maybe if the teacher is blind and stupid enough, he will actually like the feeling. Who doesnt like to be sucked up right? If i were a teacher, i dont mind students sucking up to me actually, in fact it makes me feel like royalty..hahaha! But of course i will be a smart teacher and while enjoying all the fake compliments and getting my ego boosted by having people contstantly laughing at my jokes, write a testimonial ending with...

"As an ardent learner, Pok tin would always take the initiative to pursue areas of interest and enrich himself with both the knowledge and experience to better himself for any future endeavors. His flair for bootlicking will definitely put him in good place in future. Maybe he's destined to be a butler one day ;) "

And let the whole world know what a sucker he is. But i doubt teachers will actually do that. They will write The Perfect testimonial for The Sucker and true and sincere people will have to settle with the average template type of testimonial cause they dont suck up enough.

Ok, enough said.

Haaai, i just spend another hour online! Maybe they should just cut off my connection for good.

3/01/2006

A Bio Tutorial Post

HAHAHAHAH!! My Low, my biology teacher is extremely funnnyy! Actually he's better know as the OKALRIGHT teacher.

He just called Gail, GEL! And when we tried to correct him,

"it's Gale! Not Gel.."

"Oh, Jail. So, Jail, what's your answer?"

Waddeheow! WHERE GOT PEOPLE NAME JAIL ONE?! HAHAHAH!!

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I'm currently blogging live in my bio tutorial lesson. By the way, the computers in this com lab are really good! Sometimes even faster than mine at home.

I'm risking my life blogging now cause i'm suppose to be listening to the Kidney tutorial... Hope he doesnt come over noww..

Opposite me i can see hongshen sleeping by the wall.. hongyun falling asleep now, jared eating some purple colour sweet and louis prentending to listen cause he just made mr low angry by not doing his tutorial. But i mean, he's just quite suay cause i doubt many people did but he was just suay enough to get called upon and checked.. hahaa!

I only did 2 questions for the tutorial though.

Yes! He's giving us a 5 min break, i can blog in peace now! (maximizes window, whips out the keyboard).

hahaa, everyone's suddenly awake. Oh now, the LKX gang is harrassing the teacher again!

Younmin looks very troubled. She's just sitting diagonally opposite me and she's frowning so hard she's become a unibrown. I wonder what did she see on the screen this time. Cannot be my blog right, i havent taken pictures of her for a long time... Maybe it's an email from Bai? Or she pregnancy date got pushed back? No, i think her waterbag burst.

My 5 min's break is up and i need to go soon, so i cant blog any longer.

Ok let me extend my air time and let my classmates do some shoutouts!

HELLO JIEXUAN HERE. hahaha i have e chance to appear on this popularpopular bloggg.

hello. STUPID LOUIS CHONG THE DODO FISHBALL HEAD! can he please return me my chem promo paper which is like from last year. JARED.

hello. mr low chor meng is very funny. http://www.njc.edu.sg/science/staff_science.jpg
Lowell.

oei! lian hua jie here. everyone i need a logo for my gang. anyone got idea pls contribute generously. oh and i am thinking of expanding my gang so anyone interested please contact me at XXXXXXXX. thank you!
Milo.

Yoyo AH CAI here! Dun listen to milo. I have already come up with the logo. No need for new ideas. MUST use mine!!

zhixiang and hy were here! hi to all ^^

Okalright, byeE!!